Assalamualaikum,

I want to go back to this place. Really.

The weather today is really nice, I love it. I really love to see after-rain scenery. It just calm my heart.

And owh, ya.

I am desperate. I mean, desperately desperate. I dont know what to do, where to go, where to hide myself. I want to turn back time, hide in the cave I used to hide, and being ignorant all the time.

Why?

because I have to carry a really big responsibility now. And sometimes it is really hard because I dont really into it. Why?

i just, simply, I dont know.

Am not ready?

NO.

I am lost. I am a lost kitten among tigers. I can never stand up on my own. I miss my dad.

I hate being here, in a country so far away from my country, but sometimes I love it here.

Mood swing maybe? Just dont know, again.

I love to sing, and I love to eat too!